Tiredness

Hmmm what to write ?? I dnt even know if anyone would even want to follow this.. My life to date has been somewhat up and down but then who's hasn't we all know what doesn't kill you makes you stronger right....If you would like a history ask and you shall receieve but otherwise i'l just give you the 411 on the daily goings on..

Today have done nothing but sleep don't think i am lazy i needed it, worked yesterday started a shift at 5 pm got back into nz at 430 am this morning back of the clock flight no one likes them so i actually had a well deserved rest today.. Was planing on going to get my legs and arms waxed and eyebrows threaded (cause lord knows they need it i look like a man atm) no offence to men out there tho but you know lol I had planed to go and enjoy the sun outside but sleep won at the end of the day.. Now i find its about 5pm and im wondering what to do with myself.. Dinner perhaps but my stomach has been playing up has been for the last 4 days when i went sick halfway through a 6 day trip for work food poisoning and the flu in one bang !!!

I wish i had a good man to come and take care of me maybe cook for me lol but alas i aint had a good steady one in 6years and counting.Not because i cant keep one or anything but because up until about september last year i was still in love with the X... YES you know case of the X..

However i beleave i had a right to be still holding a flame for this X, as well we were together for 4 and a half years.. I did fall pregnant 3 times (to him by the way all 3).. and he did come back tell me he loved me and wanted to be with me but it just didnt happen cause when he went to tell his then girlfriend yes he had a new girlfriend .. well she turned around and told him she was 4months pregnant with there baby..FANTASTIC (there is more to this story this is just the short version of it all.. want to know the long version just ask)

 I am seeing a guy now however and he is lovely  it is just a lil bit complicated but it has only been 5months so fingers crossed this could work out.He is one of the few guys that i have actually let close to me in a very very long time. So watch this space...I really do like this one but hmmmmmm just afew things have to be sorted out first...

Il fill you in on the stats on this guy in another blogg because for now i feel so guilty that it is after 5pm i am in my pj's and am still in bed.As my old tae kwon do coach would say " ai ai ai ai" !!!!

Better go and make use if what is left of the sunshine outside..Get my tan on haha

till next time 

laters xx